Too close to home

I am a big fan of Greys Anatomy. I have seen every episode and it is by far the one show I have watched the longest out of any. Lately I'm having a hard time watching. The last two episodes have show people with lung issues and most recently the episode showed a girl who had to make the decision to take her parent off life support. This episode by far was way too close to home. I bawled as I watched the episode. I kept hoping that somehow this episode would end happy! I am not a crier when it comes to movies or shows but this crossed my line. We watched the monitor while my mom was taken off life support. We watched as her heart rate dropped, her o2 levels dropped, and we watched her fade. This is one memory I wish so much that I could get rid of. This is one thing I will probably never get out of my head but I hope so much that the more pictures I see of her the more that memory will start to fade.

Hopes, Highlights, and Dreams of 2012

I *stole this* from a sweet girl I know but I just loved her looking forward post instead of a look back post. I just don't think I can recap 2011.

So instead I thought I would do a hopes and dreams of 2012:
1) Get into a house. While we love our townhome it is time to get more space and thankfully we are now at a point to make that happen.
2) Either get pregnant or start the adoption process again. It may be more of an end of the year beginning of next year goal but I am finally at a place that I would love for our family to expand again if it's suppose to.
3) Cook more. I do cook meals for our family but I really want to get better at this and cook more exciting meals than burgers, sloppy joes, and tacos.
4) Travel more. My grandparents want me to take them on a couple of trips this spring/summer.
5) Entertain more (would help to have more space to do this)
6) Spend more time teaching little man new things. He loves to read and I need to do more of that with him. I'd also love to have some consistent play dates and outings with him.
7) More date nights with my husband and hiring a babysitter. A good friend of ours daughter is great with him and we need to get out more as a couple and with other couples.
8) Getting out of this rut I've been in and try to gain some peace about my mom's death.

Highlights of 2012 to look forward to (heavy on the travel plans):
1) Go to NYC. My best friend and I are headed there in Feb and I couldn't be more excited!
2) My brother is getting married in July.
3) Travel to FL to see my dad, go to the beach, and hopefully take Stewart to Disney!
4) Travel to DC for a wedding.
5) Travel to Mississippi for my cousins wedding.
6) Husband is turning 30! Gotta figure out something fun for him. I threw a surprise party for him last year and it was so great!

Can't wait to see how 2012 turns out but so far Id say its off to a pretty good start!