6 weeks today!

I have passed 1 mile stone by making it to 6 weeks. Our 2nd loss was 4 weeks 3 days. We only knew we were pregnant for less than a week that time. We had a blood test done and it was super low but at the time didn't really think twice about it. We were going to go back in on monday for our 2nd draw and by that time it was over. Thankfully I am way past that point and had really good blood draws this time around!
I want to take in every moment that I can of this pregnancy because I know that this will be my one and only so I'm going to do the surveys of how i'm feeling, etc just so that I can keep a record of this. I was going to go out and buy a pregnancy journal but decided a weekly post on here would do the same thing. I may lose some readers and Im so sorry for that but I promise this blog won't be just about the pregnancy.

I'll start posting pics in a few weeks but for now here's the about me:

This week, Baby is the size of a: Lentil beanHow far along? 6 weeks
Due date: 04-15-13
Total weight gain/loss: -6lbs since I found out.
Maternity clothes? Confession: My grandma bought me a new outfit as soon as she found out. I *may* have worn them to test them out. Seriously if I could get away with wearing them pregnant or not I would. Oh my goodness are they comfy!
Sleep: I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping because I am in a lot of pain when I lay down (I have an ovarian cyst that must just be hitting something when I lay down because it is super painful and coming from that area). I ended up buying one of those pregnancy pillows and have been sleeping like a dream since.
Best moment this week: I am making the crib bedding and so far have finished the quilt and bumper. I bought the fabric months ago in hopes that we would have another baby somehow and as soon as we found out got the motivation to start it! :) I love the way its turning out. Its chartreuse chevron and black and white polka dots. I'll add in some aqua or raspberry colors once we find out what baby is. If you have been following me long enough you know I'm a crazy planner so I'm pretty sure this kid's room will be put together and ready soon after we find out if its a him or her.
Food cravings: BEEF! :) It's what's for dinner! Seriously I am a chicken girl. Love chicken and order it anytime we go out but the last 2 weeks all I have wanted was beef (ok really I just want steak but settle for any beef)
Movement: Way too early for baby movement....
Symptoms: I've thrown up just once but get queasy pretty easily. Im beyond exhaust which I never really thought it would be this much but man I could probably sleep all day. Other than that just cramping which I thankfully know is just the cyst.
Labor Signs: Hopefully none of that till April.
Stretch Marks: Well being a bigger girl and having lost a ton of weight, gained back, lost again its pretty much already there so Im not sure it will make a difference?
Swelling? Nope
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: Diet Coke. I have given up caffeine at least the first trimester.
Feeling toward Pregnancy: Feeling so blessed and lucky to get to experience this and hoping for the best for this sweet baby!
What I am looking forward to: Meeting this sweet baby and seeing how their big brother will just LOVE them! :)
Milestones: I am past my 1st loss!
News:  Our 1st apt and u/s are a week from tomorrow! I can't wait!

Baby!

Yep I'm pregnant. It's crazy and not really sinking in very well. I mean Ive only ever seen 2 other pregnancy test positive before and that was over 4 years ago. Both those times we did fertility meds and IUI.
This time is sort of the same and sort of not. At my annual in July I talked to my OB/GYN about doing a few rounds of clomid only. No monitoring, no iui, and no trigger. Just ovulation tests and clomid. She agreed that there is nothing to lose and that it would be worth a try. She didn't believe that really the other 2 things made that big of a difference since there was nothing wrong with my husband. She told me that you can only take clomid for 12 cycles She called me back that day after my apt and said let's start today. I couldn't believe it. Today? I haven't had my period since April. Don't I need to take meds to start a cycle before I can start anything? She said that new research has shown that people like me who have super long cycles can just start the clomid at anytime and call that "day 5". She put me back on the metformin because that is shown to decrease the risk of miscarriage, told me to take prenatals and call her at the end of the cycle. 2 days before I left for Panama I was having some major pain so I went to the clinic after hours for an ultrasound. Turns out as usual for me I got an ovarian cyst. Ugh. Its still been giving me pain and I am SO looking forward to the day it is gone! Well the day after I got back from Panama I decided to take the test and sure enough it turned positive right away. No waiting around and no holding it up to the light to see if there's a 2nd line. It was there and just as dark as the other. I could hardly believe it! I started bawling and called my husband at work. I was sobbing so hard he couldn't understand what I was telling him. After about the 4th time he got it. Looking back now I wish I would have done something cute to tell him but I can't keep something like that in for 5 mins to myself. Its been hard to even keep it for almost 2 weeks.
I know it's early to tell people but this cycle is so much different. I had 2 rounds of blood work and both were great, I'm feeling pregnancy symptoms which I didn't before, and just overall really feel like this is going to be ok.
Well that's the whole story. 6 1/2 years after starting the process to start a family I'm here! Yay! :)

Lots to say....

The last month has been a crazy one. My brother got married, I went to Panama, and just overall life has been crazy.

The wedding went great. It was beautiful and I know my mom would have loved almost every minute. I'm guessing she was up in heaven laughing at my dance moves because she has never seen me dance and its been a long time since Ive danced like that. It was so much fun and I was so glad to have my aunt, cousins, and my brothers friend to keep the dance party going all night. :) There *may* be pictures of me serenading the bride and groom at one point.

My trip to panama was beyond anything I could have expected. The biggest thing I took away from the trip was Break my heart for what breaks yours. It was something that hit me so strong. My heart just breaks for the people of Panama and especially the young girls of the country. There is so much abuse and no protection for them. Im hoping I get the chance to go again!

We finally got grass at our house so it really has been nice to go out and play in the yard and we've had a chance to get to know some of the neighbors. Its been so fun because there are so many young kids on our cul-de-sac.

Well that's about it for now! I'll update soon on other craziness going on :)