11 weeks!

Just typing the title gives me a huge sigh of relief!

This week, Baby is the size of a: fig
How far along? 11 weeks
Due date: 04-15-13
Total weight gain/loss: I'm up 2-3lbs. :/
Maternity clothes? Just the pants because they are amazingly comfortable!
Sleep: Still having a lot of trouble sleeping. I toss and turn a ton and am up to the bathroom as least twice.
Best moment this week: Hearing baby's heart beating! We bought a home doppler. Ive used it twice and the 2nd time found it right away!
Food cravings: Frozen coke and Hersey with almonds.
Movement: Way too early for baby movement....
Symptoms: Queasy, tired, sore chest. I noticed that when I am a little late taking the progesterone that I feel great so I am hoping that after next week when they end that so will the upset stomach!
Labor Signs: Hopefully none of that till April.
Swelling? Nope
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: Hot dogs and brats. For some reason they sound so good!
Feeling toward Pregnancy:Relief. I feel like getting to 11 weeks is such a huge milestone for me! Praying and believing that everything will continue to go well!
What I am looking forward to: My apt next week! Can't wait to see that sweet baby! Also looking forward to our babymoon/anniversary trip in a few weeks!
Milestones: Just getting this far!
News:  My husband is refusing to talk boy names because he is SO convinced it's a girl (I think its a girl too..Everyone we talk to thinks its a girl). We've had our girl name picked out since before little man came and we still love it. Plus my mom had sewn some things with her name on it so I am hoping he is right but we just hope for a healthy baby just like anyone else!

Family Fun Weekend

This last weekend was probably one of the best weekends I have had in a long time. Friday night started out with a girls night with 2 of my sweet friends. We sat at Chili's for over 2 hours and just talked and ate. It was so needed!
Saturday we went to an apple orchard with 2 other couples and their 2 year olds. The kids had just as much fun as the adults did and we didn't even pick 5 apples. There was tons of fun stuff for the kids and the ladies picked raspberries which was a lot of fun. Saturday night we went and hung out with our neighbors. We are loving getting to know our neighbors and its fun for little man because they have a boy a few months younger than him. They are also expecting too and their baby is due just a few months before ours.
Sunday we decided to have a family dad. We needed some new winter clothes so we headed out to the outlet mall. We weren't there more than an hour but it was just enough time to find what we needed and get out of there before the rush. We then went to this super fun place called Space Aliens. They had a meal deal where you get a kids pizza, adult pizza, and $10 in tokens for $15. It was a great deal. The pizza was actually really good and the small arcade was just the right size for little man. They had a space ship that you could ride in so probably half of our tokens went to the 6-8 times he rode it. Then we headed home and spent the rest of the evening in watching football.
Feeling so blessed and thankful for all our friends and such a great weekend. I was actually feeling pretty good too which is so refreshing!

Hope you had a great weekend too!

Note to self

Don't use Dr Google to self diagnose anything. :) Always ask others who have gone through things that you or your kid are going through before consulting Dr G.

Last Friday I sent myself into a downward spiral after researching what was going on with me. It turned into calls into my doc and sobbing on the phone to the nurse explaining why my world was falling apart.

Today however, I used Dr G and found reassurance. I've been having stabbing pain when I make a sudden movement, toss and turn at night, getting out of bed for the 2nd and 3rd time at night to go to the bathroom, and especially when I sneeze. Evertime it happens I get scared out of my mind and thing something horrible is going on. But after the 20th time of this happening I began to realize maybe this is normal. Turns out its round ligament pain. Here's what brought me comfort:

Symptoms of Round Ligament Pain
Round ligament pain can be concerning and uncomfortable. But it is considered normal as your body changes during pregnancy.
The symptoms of round ligament pain include a sharp, sudden spasm in the belly. It usually affects the right side, but it may happen on both sides. The pain only lasts a few seconds.
Exercise may cause the pain, as will rapid movements such as:

• sneezing
• coughing
• laughing
• rolling over in bed
• standing up too quickly

So just another lesson learned. Just have to keep thinking positive thoughts and saying: Baby is ok....Baby is ok....Deep breath!

9 Weeks and Counting!

Here is our sweet baby 2 weeks ago:

Baby had a strong heartbeat and we got tons of photos and a disc of a small video.

This week, Baby is the size of a: grape
How far along? 9 weeks
Due date: 04-15-13
Total weight gain/loss: I'm up 1lb....I had lost 6 the first few weeks but have gained 1 of those back
Maternity clothes? Im feeling so completely bloated that if I know Im going to be gone all day I actually have worn the jeans. They are way more comfy than anything I own. Im sure I'll be able to get away with a lot of my tops and dresses because they were flowy
Sleep: Still having a lot of trouble sleeping. I toss and turn a ton and am up to the bathroom as least twice.
Best moment this week: Sorting through baby stuff and getting it out of the boxes to air out. Loved seeing all the little baby items reappearing!
Food cravings: Raspberry lemonade. I could drink it by the gallons.
Movement: Way too early for baby movement....
Symptoms: Queasy, tired, sore chest. They all disappeared for a day and I freaked out but thankfully they are all back.
Labor Signs: Hopefully none of that till April.
Stretch Marks: Well being a bigger girl and having lost a ton of weight, gained back, lost again its pretty much already there so Im not sure it will make a difference?
Swelling? Nope
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: Diet Coke. I have given up caffeine at least the first trimester.
Feeling toward Pregnancy: Im so thankful for this chance to be pregnant again that I am just wishing  and hoping that this baby stays around for the long haul!
What I am looking forward to: My apt Friday. I will have another u/s and hopefully see that everything is just fine with our sweet baby.
Milestones: I am past my 2nd loss!
News:  We bought a double stroller. We got an amazing deal on it and I am so excited about it. I know little man won't always ride in it since he will be almost 3 but I wanted something that gave us the option of 1 or 2.


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Lack of blogging

I missed last weeks update and honestly I'm just in a funk. I'm trying so hard not to worry but honestly I've been down this road twice before this and both times have left me heart broken. I worry every time I go to the bathroom that things will be over. Im still feeling sick, my chest still hurts, and Im still exhausted so I have no reason to believe that this time will be the same as the others. I have made it past the point of when our 1st baby passed away but unfortunately it took me almost 2 weeks to miscarry and so I didn't even know something was wrong. Ugh. I just can't get that out of my head. I need my next doctor's apt (a week from tomorrow) to be here. I need some reassurance that baby is fine!

Other time consuming things are that little man had minor surgery. Everything went fine and he his healing well!

I will try and post an update next Monday. Maybe then I will feel something new or have something to say.

6 weeks today!

I have passed 1 mile stone by making it to 6 weeks. Our 2nd loss was 4 weeks 3 days. We only knew we were pregnant for less than a week that time. We had a blood test done and it was super low but at the time didn't really think twice about it. We were going to go back in on monday for our 2nd draw and by that time it was over. Thankfully I am way past that point and had really good blood draws this time around!
I want to take in every moment that I can of this pregnancy because I know that this will be my one and only so I'm going to do the surveys of how i'm feeling, etc just so that I can keep a record of this. I was going to go out and buy a pregnancy journal but decided a weekly post on here would do the same thing. I may lose some readers and Im so sorry for that but I promise this blog won't be just about the pregnancy.

I'll start posting pics in a few weeks but for now here's the about me:

This week, Baby is the size of a: Lentil beanHow far along? 6 weeks
Due date: 04-15-13
Total weight gain/loss: -6lbs since I found out.
Maternity clothes? Confession: My grandma bought me a new outfit as soon as she found out. I *may* have worn them to test them out. Seriously if I could get away with wearing them pregnant or not I would. Oh my goodness are they comfy!
Sleep: I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping because I am in a lot of pain when I lay down (I have an ovarian cyst that must just be hitting something when I lay down because it is super painful and coming from that area). I ended up buying one of those pregnancy pillows and have been sleeping like a dream since.
Best moment this week: I am making the crib bedding and so far have finished the quilt and bumper. I bought the fabric months ago in hopes that we would have another baby somehow and as soon as we found out got the motivation to start it! :) I love the way its turning out. Its chartreuse chevron and black and white polka dots. I'll add in some aqua or raspberry colors once we find out what baby is. If you have been following me long enough you know I'm a crazy planner so I'm pretty sure this kid's room will be put together and ready soon after we find out if its a him or her.
Food cravings: BEEF! :) It's what's for dinner! Seriously I am a chicken girl. Love chicken and order it anytime we go out but the last 2 weeks all I have wanted was beef (ok really I just want steak but settle for any beef)
Movement: Way too early for baby movement....
Symptoms: I've thrown up just once but get queasy pretty easily. Im beyond exhaust which I never really thought it would be this much but man I could probably sleep all day. Other than that just cramping which I thankfully know is just the cyst.
Labor Signs: Hopefully none of that till April.
Stretch Marks: Well being a bigger girl and having lost a ton of weight, gained back, lost again its pretty much already there so Im not sure it will make a difference?
Swelling? Nope
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: Diet Coke. I have given up caffeine at least the first trimester.
Feeling toward Pregnancy: Feeling so blessed and lucky to get to experience this and hoping for the best for this sweet baby!
What I am looking forward to: Meeting this sweet baby and seeing how their big brother will just LOVE them! :)
Milestones: I am past my 1st loss!
News:  Our 1st apt and u/s are a week from tomorrow! I can't wait!

Baby!

Yep I'm pregnant. It's crazy and not really sinking in very well. I mean Ive only ever seen 2 other pregnancy test positive before and that was over 4 years ago. Both those times we did fertility meds and IUI.
This time is sort of the same and sort of not. At my annual in July I talked to my OB/GYN about doing a few rounds of clomid only. No monitoring, no iui, and no trigger. Just ovulation tests and clomid. She agreed that there is nothing to lose and that it would be worth a try. She didn't believe that really the other 2 things made that big of a difference since there was nothing wrong with my husband. She told me that you can only take clomid for 12 cycles She called me back that day after my apt and said let's start today. I couldn't believe it. Today? I haven't had my period since April. Don't I need to take meds to start a cycle before I can start anything? She said that new research has shown that people like me who have super long cycles can just start the clomid at anytime and call that "day 5". She put me back on the metformin because that is shown to decrease the risk of miscarriage, told me to take prenatals and call her at the end of the cycle. 2 days before I left for Panama I was having some major pain so I went to the clinic after hours for an ultrasound. Turns out as usual for me I got an ovarian cyst. Ugh. Its still been giving me pain and I am SO looking forward to the day it is gone! Well the day after I got back from Panama I decided to take the test and sure enough it turned positive right away. No waiting around and no holding it up to the light to see if there's a 2nd line. It was there and just as dark as the other. I could hardly believe it! I started bawling and called my husband at work. I was sobbing so hard he couldn't understand what I was telling him. After about the 4th time he got it. Looking back now I wish I would have done something cute to tell him but I can't keep something like that in for 5 mins to myself. Its been hard to even keep it for almost 2 weeks.
I know it's early to tell people but this cycle is so much different. I had 2 rounds of blood work and both were great, I'm feeling pregnancy symptoms which I didn't before, and just overall really feel like this is going to be ok.
Well that's the whole story. 6 1/2 years after starting the process to start a family I'm here! Yay! :)